hurting..

last night. i have found someone's blog. i'm very excited as lastly i found her blog. i've read all her post.but when i read one of her thousand post, suddenly i feel my heart was broken n i feel hurt too much.totally hurt :(

after i've read the post, i felt down.my tears rolling down, my mind keep asking the same n definitely negative ques..what if, what if, what if....OMG!! :( i couldn't sleep last nite.

this morning i've try to act normal n pretending like nothing's happen but i can't do it. he realizes something wrong have bothering me. he asked me to tell him. but it is too cruel to him for me to intrude his mind when he needs to work this morning.

so the best i could do is i told him there is nothing happened n i love him so much. omg...i keep blaming myself for all of these. hey, what had past,let it past la.. it have been 8 months la azni. you guys are so happy together. don't let these issues ruin it.

but if you in my shoes,what you will feel when a strange feeling comes and you hope it will get off from your mind but it just won't go...

it's totally hurting me!

sob sob sob